this blog is die-ing.....

this blog is die-ing..... -.-

I've nothing to write again and.....

i'm goin to create another blog again lolz

wait my new blog ;P

Just scold

Scold only lorh....

scold im childish whatever

all just only know how to kesian tat thing

how about me now??!!

I DUN CARE NOW....I QUIT NOW!!! YOU ALL WILL HAPPY RITE??? FINE

I'LL SUICIDE IN FRONT OF YOU ALL NEXT WEEK!!!!

You're a Jerk In my World

I impressed your acting

You are good in acting

everybody stand at your side

even yq mbrs.... You did a good job, GREAT JOB!!!

It wasn't end yet..... Dont think you won

I haven give up yet..... I won't give up

I'll fight until the end!!!

One of us must lose ; One of us must quit PMO

It will stop afterthat......

I know how i hate you

I hate you until I want you to get lost in my eyes

even quit PMO............

I'll let you taste that feeling of lose

I'll let you try....... Let you try........... Try the taste of losing........

I'll rmb u

When we are children, we are close
we share our things together
i won't forget it......

But now we grown up
our mind is different now
we'll argue because of small things
mayb u dont care, but i care....

I won't forget how you did to me
I won't forget how you made me lose everything
I won't forget how you look me at that moment
I won't forget how you act to make ppl care on you

Eunice Aw......
You made me lost everything
Made me lost my friends, my mood
even lost myself!!!
You should pay the price.......
I'LL PAY YOU TWICE ONE DAY!!!!
I'LL LET YOU TASTE THE FEELING OF LONELY & THE FEELING OF GOING TO HELL......

A new e-mail was born

some problems appeared on my own email tat is >>> benjaminchew1996@hotmail.com

Then..... i changed my e-mail, the name is quite cool~

darkness96_world@hotmail.com

quickly add me now!!!

I regret everything i did in this year.....

I'm just a dust in the world,
who cares me when i'm alone?
loner are the loser forever,
everybody are the winners and what am I??

I'm just a dust in the world,
who cares me when I needed someone to help?
all of you saw me and just ran away,
only I'm helping myself......

I'm just a dust in the world,
who cares me if i died one day??
if i die will be better, sad memories will lost straight away,
confirmed none will attend my bury.....

i regret i did many things this year.....
came to this school, joined pmo, joined YQ, joined the trip, joined the camp, talent night, make friends and........
trying to act like a happy person infront of the peoples
to remove the sad memories in my mind
but where is the thing i should get??
but those ppl can easily to get their things
but why not me??

i regret so much
regret that i'm so childish
thought all of you likes me very much
i woke up now
i realised that i'm just like a kid
i can't trust that i can tricked by people easily
but now i understand......
you all just a lier
just know how to say but didnt do it
make me happy like a 3 years old kid
i'm 13 not 3
and not an idiot......
u broke my heart wif your own hands
i'll rmb this wad u did to me......

this world is selfish
is not everything u can get it by waiting
u must get it by your hands
u cannot let people
u must snatch it from others
thats the way being a human in this selfish world........
if not u'll be a loser forever.....

Dr3Am YaNGq|nG....... xD

this sunday i'm going to bring my new baby!!! ( YQ la, not real baby ) so happy......

also i want to thank to Miss Joyanti because she was the person who helped me to choose a better YQ for me ( she said got 1 that she chosen for me is white in colour )

wahahaha.... white colour, thats the colour i want~~~ can like yuen chai of coz i happy~~~....

lucky it is not too big, if not i cant place it in my house -3-... but finnaly my dream comes true.... at least gt a yangqin wif me i'll be not so alone... =D

stupid KH...

omg..... i didnt finish my KH project ( kerja kayu ) including paint tat wad syellek.... ><

cantum kayu i even haven finish, i sure die 1.... i hate KH so much, why should learn KH?! not even we will become a plumber or something rubbish, damn noob thing!!!

Sorry.....

i'm sorry to doin tat, doing that hurted your soul your heart..... i thought we'll be more closer than before....

it doesn't. it became more serious.... it makes us far apart... i asked myself : " am i did something wrong? am i doing some non-sense? many questions in my mind... "


i just wan our friendship become more closer more friendly...... i did not hope this kind of things happen, i;m sorry.......

i can't do anything now but...... just forgive me.

I'm so glad

about my year's YQ group... my hope was success...

Today saw kwee yuen and jia jing stayed at PMO room when i'm late to school ( almost like 12.30 or something ). I saw them practicing their percussion for the test at november... before that they even didn't come up before... i'm so happy that gt people are more hardworking than me....

Actually i'm a bit lazy... every wednesday i'll go school earlier, now?? lie-ing on the bed now.....

Lol... must be hardworking edi... but sudden jump out a final exam- -
my geografi, sejarah, KH and many still can't afford it..... ><

we are far apart.....

this is first time i write my own poem.... dun laugh cz i noe its very bad and a rubbish poem... but pls respect me....

before that we are close....
we had happy memories,
when we have happy things we share,
i won't forget the memories.......

but after the meeting,
many things changed and happened....
everybody became cooler in my world,
threw me into a drain...
it hurts my heart....
wounds around my heart....
makes me feel pain every night

you all leave me alone beside a corner
care yourself did not care about me...
i asked myself why and nobody can't answer
coz i hide it into my darkness world,
i'm not dare to tell anybody.....

i'm scared teased by people...
i just born to be a joker
make you all laugh
but i cant be happy
i'm too stress to live on this world.....

is this set by god??
i dont know....
but i dissagree...
why god treat me like this?!
what is the meaning i stay here?
ITS MEANINGLESS.........


coming bck from pmo....
in eunice's car.....
i heard the song - 心语 by Jay Chou
tears trying to come out
finnaly controled it....
i dun wan to hear the song again.....
when i can listen you all sing 白色风车 in front of me??

Bor|nG QuiZz....

Now, here's what you're supposed to do, and please do not spoil the fun. Copy and paste this into your notes, delete my answers, type in your answers and tag 20 of your friends to answer this. Then see what happens.

if you're a guy - post this as "my kind of girl"
if you're a girl - post it as "my kind of guy"
to whichever gender you prefer, really.

1. Do you need him/her to be good looking?
Yea.... cz ltr gv ppl laughing at me that i hv an ugly gf

2. Smart?
dont smarter than me

3. Preferred age?
dun too young n too old.... and also dun same age!!!

4. Preferred height?
taller than me better ( will feel more safer )

5. How about sense of humour?
dun be so humour than me... i enough humour edi

6. How about piercings?
ok la... but dun PK wif me the piercings... you sure lose!!! lol

7. Accepts you for who you are?
of cz.... if nt can bercinta meh?!

8. Pink hair?
can be accept... but dun chg my hair colour ( i hate pink >< )

9. Mushy or no?
wateva.....

10. Thin or fat?
SLIM LA.... fatty gf can force me to die man

11. Black, Brown, Yellow or White(skin colour)?
brown? dun black... ppl will thought i bela-ing a dog...

12. Long hair or short hair?
long hair looks neat...

13. Plastic or metal?
dun too keras or lembik = =

14. Smells good?
if gt perfume of cz gd....

15. Smoker?
is tat crazy?? ltr she die b4 me

16. Drinker?
no way... ltr she drunk will happen something i dun wan... lolz

17. Girl/Boy-next-door type?
dun like at all

18. Muscular?
if she is muscular den i bcome gay edi

19. Play piano?
errrrr...... can accept

20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar?
no... ltr she ply electronic guitar i'll faint

21. Plays violin?
i'll fall asleep

22. Sings very well?
yea!! sing like Jay Chou!!!

23. Vain?
eeeuuu...... to perasan no boys like it

24. With glasses?
okay too... dun wear too old fashion

25. With braces?
can we wear together eat porridge together?? quite romantic like ribena tat iklan xD

26. Shy type?
a bit oso can....i oso shy type =P

27. Rebel or good boy/girl?
of cz rebel!!! can owayzz high like me

28. Active or passive?
dun hyper active like my dog......

29. Tight or bomb?
wads tat?

30. Singer or dancer?
better both oso dun wan... but dancer cn

31. Stunner?
OF CZ!!!! if nt i will pikat her?!

32. Hiphop?
GOOD! especially pet-pet dance.... xD

33. Earrings?
dun wear too small ear-rings

34. Mr/Mrs. count-my-ex-boy/girlfriends-until-you-drop?
so like to count go teach maths!!

35. Dimples?
i hate it

36. Bookworm?
OH MY GOD..... i sure kick her out

37. Mr/Mrs.love letter?
especially write those very geli things ( like i miss u so much muackzz <3 )

38. Playful?
i like tat kind.... but dun too annoying

39. Flirt?
you gt problem dun find me... i jz find u to ply xD

40. Poem writer?
no way!! i dunno wad she is writing also

41. Serious?
dun too serious....

42. Campus Crush?
yeah!!

43. Painter?
NO..... i hate paint!! so dirty

44. Religious?
dun so religious... i hate tat

45. Someone who likes to tease people?
lets us tease ppl 2gether!!! i like to do tat

46. Computer games geek? Or internet freak?
if we hv same interest like on9 games den sure can....

47. Speaks 20 lauguages?
perfect.... cz i can dun nid to talk... let my gf hlp me to say xD

48. Loyal or faithful?
can both oso dun wan? do ppl dun nid to serious... =)

49. Good kisser?
ok too... dun bite my mouth den can edi..... ( and also my tongue )

50. Loves children?
ask herself i dunno......



own comment : LOL...... reli sampat the questions... but i answered it seriously!!! DONT LAUGH OK??? it reli my style ma.... haiyo, dunno hw to control ur mouth jz use celephone tape stick ur mouth lol.....

feeling i like air.....

2day sudden tat feeling appeared...... dunno why..... jz made me not so hapi, feeling not comfortable....

b4 tat i can talk wif huiqing them very "open", means chat wif them friendly... but now it changed. like... i felt tat it has a wall between us... wad is tat kind of feeling?? i suddenly hv a very strange feeling this afternoon... everybody jz talking laughing gossiping jz i'm the person sitting there quietly and ply my chinese dulcimer..... gt a terrible feeling....... RELI NT UNDERSTAND...

if i did nt guess wrong... the relationship between us bcome bad??? i duno jz follow my feelings... cant control myself, i'm out of control...... last time can talk wif yan hui them hapily like joking, annoying or something..... but* it changes..... i reli worry myself, i dunno wad will happen if this feeling continues... i scare i'll become the me in the past....

i reli dunno reli dun understand..... i just can pray the god......

ALL THE BEST F4 YQ!!!

tml is 乐浪华乐独奏赛 edi...... too bad supporter cannot go but i duno y cannot?? if gt chance i oso cant... sad!!! jz "aleluya" hope them can win the competition....

.... quite long i knw f4's... but we oso didnt chat too much... jz u c me i c u like tat... =_=
although we didnt talk so much...but i quite like them... cz i duno y too...

but... if they leave us 1 day... i reli duno hw we can be in the future... jz appreciate our time....

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LOLZ............... coz nth to do.... write my diary everyday?? u all 100% sure sleeping...... -3- i oso cannot tahan

too lazy... i mean *very lazy

lazy to blogging man.... neh stupid readers owayz call me to update blog... den i think?! update wad? nth to up also damn..... eh i gt something to say!!!

today quite bad n damn n nth day.... morning jz doin hmw ( tat nid to submit 2day )... damn many cz the hmw's were given by tat NGAN!!! doin till crazy... keep controlling myself dun throw books ( i owayzz do tat when i'm stress ) cz i cn break things with my book xD

^^^
tats morning...

afternoon.......
OMG!! i forgotten susan's hmw..... jz copy from my fren's =_= recess time jz thinking hw to ponteng pjk ( of cz hide at pmo rm )... saw huiqing at ther go n asked her to unlock the door b4 i come to ponteng... ( i so clever man )~~~ perasan again........ xP
pjk period i ran to pmo rm to ensure nobody saw me... but oso saw by ppl ( didnt c him at all )...
maybe i am to clever, too scare some ppl tell teacher wher i'm hiding, when i in pmo rm edi... ( close bck the door and locked *nt reli lock* go into the rm *close the blue door too* xD) I CLEVER LIKE GOD MAN!!!!

night??
blogging la then?? of cz gt hmw... TT after blogging then continue my hmw ( stupid hmw i hate it
so much!! ) stupid diary n damn BM essay........ AND noob sivik project...... JUS DO NO NID DIE


ok readers?? like it??!! har??!! cant hear at all ( of cz cannot ) LOL

Form 5's installation??

eeeee........ form 5 wan leave us....... when i'm posting, my neighbour's grandchildren crying =.='' ( quite loud, almost everyday cry pro man!! )

anyway, our form 1 want to prepare souvenirs for them... quite hard for us i guess..... i heard qian wen said that form 5 at least have 30 - 40 ppl?! Oh Gosh!! can we prepare so many presents?? but if form 1 work 2gether, i think we sure can did it well...

i wonder how is the installation at 8 august? how is the games by form 4?? i wish it will be ok.... and then us?? ( sure nothing ) cause they are so diam, so cool.... ( i'm freezing )

form 5?? they sure cry...... if i cry with them?? haih... dun perasan again ( muz advice myself always, can't control my attitude ) hope they have a sweet memories that day...

how about our YQ group?? farewell party or something?? just ask huiqing...................

am i annoying??

i think i am.........i'm such an annoying person...... wad cause me bcome like that??

1. too kepo, too sampat??

2. too like to care other ppl's thing?

3. too action?

4. or too perasan??

i think so...... if anybody think i'm annoying please advice or scold me, cause i too wanted ppl to scold me..........

*nt mean i mad, just mad myself........ :S

I suffered..........

i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead i'm dead

I"M SUFFERED...............................................

this thursday still having report card day......... better i go hell........ If i go hell everything will become good............ No ppl will take my report card and make difference between me n other ppl......... then i don't need bcome so sad......... May god bring me to heaven?? i wish i can....

problem family?? .... i'm dissapointed to this family

why? why should i say like this?? tats why i choose this name on my blog, this is because of this family problem.... ya, maybe some ppl will say i'm blaming my family, but not, THIS IS TRUTH!!! i can tell u while i'm writing this post i'm crying.... 2day i wan to tell everybody HOW BAD IS MY FATHER!!!

just before i writing this post, mean bck from tuition, wearing pmo shirt, just enter the house, i saw my father n sister argue.... like few days ago i call my father "dad", why this time not?? coz i fed up, i hate him so much, he did many many things which is made me so sad, so dissapointed....
i saw hw they argue... they made my heart broke into pieces... i feel that my life is gone....

my father close my sister's pc wif closing the switch... then my sis ask him why shut down her pc... my father scolded her didn't study well... huh? my sis gt study yesterday!!! my sister also like me hated him so much, then both of them started argue...... A thing that i cannot imagine is my father slap my sis!!! after that he leave....

i can't stand it anymore.... how dare he slap my sis!!! i saw my sis go to store and hide herself in that rm and crying, as a brother i will feel sad too...... he thought himself is the god, everything he is correct... i heard he asked me when they are argue : " ur that pmo friday and saturday oso wan go, ur that club crazy aa?" i heard this question reli wan slap back him, what kind of question he asking??? like i love pmo than he... ya, i love pmo more than he, so wat?? with pmo members become friends got wrong?? yes, i dun like talk wif my classmates?? so? they all noobs and nerd, just noe hw to study.... i'm nt that kind of sohai, so???

posting this post full of my anger..... but please all readers dun come ask me about this question, cause i really can cry in front of u.....

i'm still all alone......

i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u
i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u
i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u
i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u
i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u i miss u

HOW ARE YOU?? i gonna be CRAZY~~~~

i miss u wen fang... TT

PMO-ians CAUTION!!!

my wen fang gonna turn school... tell u a secret

1. bcoz i'm bzing do the small farewell party b4 the selection, i had a terrible head-ache at nite... it is friday

2. i n wen fang nt COUPLE!! jz a very very very gd friends... ( she is the 1st senior i talk with her in pmo )

OK?? its like tat.... so everybody dun talk those "non-sense" again... but i hope u'll won't listen me xD

FAREWELL PARTY 4 WENFANG AT SUNWAY

actually i wan to discuss this at 2day 1... but bcoz i'm rushing to tuition, so..... hehe....

it will be held at next or next next sunday... it is still not confirmed yet, so if anything changes i'll tell u all

anyone who wants to join the farewell party please call or tell me , my PHONE NUMBER IS :
0163261131

i'm nt sure i can open pc in this few days... if u have any problem, come find me at school....

吻别 from 张学友

前尘往事成云烟 消散在彼此眼前

就连说过了再见 也看不见你有些哀怨

给我的一切 你不过是在敷衍

你笑得越无邪 我就会爱你爱得更狂野

总在刹那间有一些了解

说过的话不可能会实现

就在一转眼 发现你的脸 陌生不会再像从前

我的世界开始下雪, 冷得让我无法多爱一天

冷得连隐藏的遗憾都那么地明显

我和你吻别在无人的街, 让风痴笑我不能拒绝

我和你吻别在狂乱的夜, 我的心等着迎接伤悲

想要给你的思念 就像风筝断了线

飞不进你的世界 也温暖不了你的视线

我已经看见一场悲剧正上演

剧终没有喜悦 我仍然躲在你的梦里面

总在刹那间有一些了解

说过的话不可能会实现

就在一转眼发现你的脸陌生不会再像从前

我的世界开始下雪, 冷得让我无法多爱一天

冷得连隐藏的遗憾都那么地明显

我和你吻别在无人的街, 让风痴笑我不能拒绝

我和你吻别在狂乱的夜, 我的心等着迎接伤悲

lol... my pc downloaded chinese "launguages" ( lazy go correct the mistake )

susan's oral test....

tml susan's oral test... damn... haven prepare yet... my oral test "group" wif a classmate sit bside me --> Carmen lim...

tat oral subject is the need of bringing cell phone?? duno y must call cell phone, y is nt handphone?? cell phone is a 70 80 century phone 4 me... out-date phone... XD

quite easy the oral i think..... hope my partner can do it well soon.....

*about my leg i'll post my pretty leg at next time, or u cannot wait to c, come skul find me, WAITING U........ lol

test aa....... SOTPLUG test

LOL... this second term test like hell like that.....

My COMMENT 4 TEST :

English paper 1 : haven test yet.... duno.... next week tell

English paper 2 : write composition did not write title LOL..... dunno puan susan will minus my marks or not.... aleluya dun lo...

B.Malaysia paper 2 : almost all know how to do.... novel aa.... that paper says want do 4 paragraph but i go n do 5!! LOL quite ok de karangan... ( i think )

B.Malaysia paper 1 : will be test at next monday.... scare hard... tembak lo.... i gt tembak license ( A+ de thim )

Maths : CHEAP like hell.... my pro subject lerr

Chinese : chinese suckzz!! CHINESE SOTPLUG, WAHAHAhaha......

K.hidup : KH oso sotplug!!! sei PUAN HOW choose hard question, let me tembak till crazy.... TT

LAZY TO WRITE EDI........................................................................

hahahaha.................. xD

THAT THING FINNALY GONE.....

yesterday, Thursday ( scary day 4 me ), i went to menara mutiara majestic in PJ old town ( near my hse ) to cut that creature on my leg.....

For other ppl of cz feel shiok lol.... for me like going hell... TT ( very kesian la )

go to the clinic.... I'm the last to c the doctor.... ply me meh?! wan go cut and feel cemas still need me to wait a long time... i gt heart attack de doctor... ( talk oso useless, doctor oso dunno my blog xD )

Finally its my turn jorr ( means go cut lo )... I feeling like that the operation bed very cold & cool like coffin ( CHOI!! )

The operation started at 5.30pm... ( I'm tremble ) the doctor tear my that creature like tearing dead skin.... but i didnt feel dou anything? jz can feel the doctor is cutting my leg =D

Soon... MY NIGHT MARE GONE JOR LA HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA........... ( shioknya... )

its quite painful when i sitting, eating, sleeping & bathing xD But that thing lost i oso felt hapi SO much.....

wan c that thing pictures?? *Quite disgusting*

* gt 1 pic is u all most wan to c ( that is my luka ma.... gt take du worry =D )

OMG its bleeding!!! ( lazy choi it xD )

Its like more blood bleeding = =

ALL OF YOU MOST LIKE THIS PICTURE DE LA.... SEE? GT SEW MY LEG 1 ( THAT PART ONLY NOT WHOLE LEG XD )

HIGH mou watch my pics?? ended this topic...... =D

can sparrow eat a plastic bag??

who says sparrow cannot eat plastic like turtle?? 2day morning 9.40am.... i'm goin to tuition centre....

I saw a small sparrow trying to eat a plastic bag. the plastic bag's size is more bigger than it... but the sparrow didnt gv up to swallow the bag....

our world is polluted now.... i'm touched to see how hungry and poor is the sparrow....

SO, PROTECT OUR EARTH MOTHER... THIS OUR HOME....... WE HAVE RESPONSIBLE TO SAVE OUR HOME!!!

SOMETHING ON MY LEG.......

Did u see that weird thing?? TT today i'm went hospital and cut this things..........

i scare the pain.... Come hospital visit me =D

JOGGING or NOTHING??

today wanted to invite jaykerr to jogging at tmn jaya...... but something i did not want to happen happened......

i waited at tmn jaya a few minutes( i'm nt so sabar ), so i jz walking around the park. Jz walk n walk n walk n walk...... i did not c jaykerr's shadow or something... I thought he was came so called him... Fine, no answer me. Jz walk n walk.........

My DAMN father started his non-sense moral sense!! he told me did not to find my friend again... he won't come at all... friends was like tat... they will lie or trick u whether they gt go jogging wif u... some people was like to trick ppl, *the best is the family members.....

I've no mood but bringing anger with him... HE thought himself is correct, think himself is the best people, best father in the world!!! I really wanted to vomit to his face... wat the heck he think he are?? he jz a normal ppl n father... its life!! MY LIFE

My life jz like controlling by my family, i juz like a puppet will be thrown by peple at anytime......... I DID NOT NEED THE FAMILY LOVE AT ALL!! I'M HOPELESS FOR THIS FAMILY!!!

Only PMO can cheer me up... I wanted all people notice on me, i needed love.............. only PMO won't let me bcome alone and sick...........

FINNALY I CR8 OWN BLOG.... LOL

BLOGGER GT SOMETHING WAN TO TALK....

er.... when i talk i will talk many non-sense... LOL?? 1st of cz i wan tq to JJ(jaykerr =D) and BOBO~~~

me says to jaykerr : = = tq lol

me says to BOBO : tq 4 ur guide, but nt at all, cz finnaly is i cr8 myself... xD

so.... hope everybody can gv or post some comment to me lorr.... aiya nth to say la!!

just... spam my blog 99.... =D